I tried to feel sad just now.
I put on some music, turned on the fairy lights and made the whole place dark, and just lay in bed thinking.
My heart didn’t feel anything.
I don’t know why I’m trying to feel sad. It’s just one of those times when you want to feel something.
Because I feel like I hardly feel anything now. I feel just normal. The waters are really calm and the weather is cool. I’m lying on a small sail boat in a large crystal clear lake and it’s kinda just floating there.
That’s what it feels like.
I guess I should just appreciate it.
My sad times will come. Somehow.
Really I don’t know why I want to feel sad sometimes.
I wrote about this didn’t I? I wanted to feel sad because then life felt a little more real.