Vision of God

I asked the Lord that I might grow In faith and love and every grace Might more of His salvation know And seek more earnestly His face. ‘Twas He who taught me this to pray, And He, I trust, has answered prayer; But it has been in such a way As almost drove me to […]

It’s still not gone, and honestly I can’t tell anymore whether it’s because of the things around me or if it’s really just something wrong with me that’s seeing the wrong in everything around me


I felt really horrible the entire day today. I actually really wanted to skip my philosophy lecture this morning to sleep a little more, but when I checked the topic and saw that it was about cosmology and Theism it made me wanna go for it Hah what a nerd But I felt so dead. […]


I think I’ve generally been someone who doesn’t have a hard time opening up to people, and whenever I have negative thoughts or feelings, I’d usually tell someone about them in hopes of trying to get rid of them. But today was one of the few times I regretted opening up to people. It wasn’t […]

Dream log (Charlie lim and trump)

Since I can’t remember the number for my dream logs I’ll just title them haha I was at some park, and Charlie lim (yes jairia your distant relative haha so funny) was performing for this Donald trump event thing, there was his face plastered on the backdrop, but the place was empty and the only […]


Think the main basis of every nauseous/uncomfortable/ anxious feeling I ever had was because I’ve been too inward focused. If you’re all that’s on your mind, of course every bad thought or feeling you feel will get immensely bigger than how tiny they really are in the scale of the universe. For cell today we […]

Ivy and church

It’s funny how God used Ivy to help me see church in a more positive light again. I was actually in the middle of writing something really negative about church, something about feeling anxious and nauseous about the thought of going, but then I decided to not dwell on it so I scraped that post. […]


Bugs are really so alien and foreign looking. They look nothing like humans and it seems like they don’t have any particular emotion or thought. Maybe that’s why it’s so easy to kill them when we want to spray the life out of a cockroach or when we gotta squish some pesky ants. Do vegans […]

Valentine’s Day

So apparently Valentine’s Day started in the 18th century by some roman ruler combining a festival commemorating the martyrdom of two saints (both named valentine) and another where drunk men beat up women with animal hides. Think relationships have definitely been over-romanticised, to the point where it doesn’t work out for either parties. I watched […]

Cell lesson

Raymynn and I just ended a Skype call at 2:36am and we were really struggling to come up with our cell lesson for tomorrow. For some reason it was so hard to think of the cell group’s needs and what they needed to hear, as well as what was most important to teach. I was […]