Fear and anger

Fear and anger seem to go remarkably well. I had to hide in the cupboard to calm down because I couldn’t close the damned door. Just the feeling of being in the same air as that person made me feel so sick. I want to escape but I can’t. Cry out but what’s the point […]

Hospital

My grandma just got admitted to hospital. Honestly, I’m not sure how serious it is. No one’s really telling me much. My mom said that it might be some kind of infection. When I heard the doorbell ring, my parents and my grandpa came back, but not my grandma. I was expecting her to be […]

Diseased

It’s not the first time that I’ve felt this way. All of a sudden, I feel sick, like emotionally sick, a little bit of fear, guilt, disappointment, sadness, and a stabbing pain – a slow kind. It kind of just creeps into my heart, worming its way through like some sort of infestation spreading its […]

Airport

When you step into the airport it’s such a cool feeling, this huge open space, the echo of people hustling by, luggage wheels going clickity clack and my favourite part – that huge signboard showing all the flights and destinations. I especially like the analog kind, with letters printed on plastic cards, they whirl into […]

Shepard’s Retreat

It’s been a good three days since we came back from retreat but I think I remember most of it so here goes. I felt a little queasy at the start. No not because of the motion sickness. It felt like social anxiety. (Recently I’ve been having bouts of it. Like today, I felt it […]

Last Supper

Really wanted to write about today because it was a good day “Played” basketball with Sam and Lum in the morning, and I’m already feeling the muscle aches coming on. Basketball is probably my worst sport, you have to be all cool and intimidating to play it right hahaha. Lum was a really good coach, […]

Different 

Hmmmm… where do I start. Jairia just randomly texted me a screenshot of an old post I wrote, and that’s how I ended up looking back at this place. It’s strange, reading things from the past. Like I’m reading someone else’s thoughts because I feel different now. I’m a lot happier. Less cringey (I hope). […]

Dream Log #something

I dreamt that there was a curse that was going around, and it was called the curse of the living death. And whoever had it would smell like a rotting corpse, and the people around them would slowly die, especially if you touched them. It killed millions of people in a city.  When I woke […]

Birthday

Staring blankly at a flame What am I wishing for? Hearing voices singing the song, quietly, shyly.  But something felt a little wrong Maybe it was that one silent voice That now come to think of it I can’t even remember a time where I heard him   It felt strange like it didn’t matter […]

Where

Where is the place for the broken? Where is the place for the lost? Maybe in the lowest pits we will have only darkness, when we fall there might be no one with us. But you can climb, choose to look up and see people reaching out their hands to you  Don’t just stare blankly […]