I actually came here to write about something really negative again but I think I want to write about nice and happy things for a change. Things are relatively peaceful now. I realise I just dump all my negative emotions here, but I kind of want to store happy memories here too.
So for the first time in my life, I was completely alone in Singapore without my family. Not that that was a happy thing (we have enjoyed a period of peace ever since I had a long talk with my dad, but I don’t think I’ll write about that because I’ll remember everything and some of it is pretty personal).
I tried to cram as much as I could these past 3 days to spend with friends.
On sunday, I wanted to cook for my primary school friends, it was pretty tiring actually. I almost ruined every dish (from some missed step or wrong order of things or not buying enough of something) but somehow tammy and I managed to salvage everything and it turned out pretty tasty. It was a really nice night, It felt like we were all 30 and laughing and talking about all sorts of things. We reflected a little on our friendship, and where we’d be next time. Would we meet often? We’ve never had a proper argument before (primary school doesn’t count because back than all of us were arrogant little bastards), and we all feel extremely comfortable with each other. Well it has been ….. 20 – 7 years with is 13 years since we’ve all known each other.
Acacia stayed over to keep me company at night, I’ve known her since I was 2. That’s pretty insane. It was nice, and we slept because we’re too old to stay up all night.
Monday Gen came over and she was really broke so I cooked her cheese ramen and one sunny side up egg. We practised all day, and it was fun too. I’m really glad that I can spend a lot of time with her every week. I really wanted to keep being friends with her after poly, and I hope I can keep this bridge I have with her for a long time.
After that I went over to Raymynnlynn’s house, and had dinner with them and their parents. Their mom cooked prawns and dumplings -really tasty. Their parents were pretty quiet and soft spoken. But they were really nice.
We spent the whole night messing around with their instruments. We played disney songs, and I sang. The feeling of making music with friends is just really nice. I actually wanted to figure out a new song I wrote with them, but figured having fun was more important. (It was way too much work)
When it was 10:30pm, we stopped (to be considerate of the neighbours grand pianos are pretty loud), and we talked about church. Some good things, some bad things (like frustrations), and some desires and goals.
We shared one bed. It was really really tight. I was half hanging off one side of the bed. But it was nice sleeping with people (only child problems)
I would have never imagined that I’d get so close to them. I’m closer to raymynn, but I spent more time with raylynn on tuesday as raymynn had school in the morning. And we did random music things again. It was loads of laughs.
Then I went to Sera’s house and we ran together. More like she ran. I gave up halfway and felt like jelly. She’s been trying to run for a while, and I’m really impressed with her determination (that I will never have). Then I watched her do her makeup for an hour. It was nice catching up with her too.
I’m grateful for friends, close friends that I can be completely myself around. I don’t really have any friends in Uni, but in a way It gives me more capacity to just concentrate on who I already have in my life.
It was a good 3 days. Now I feel a little less negative. I should do this more.